Just hope she figures out I'm not the enemy and will begin to open up to me soon. This is really getting wearisome to the soul.
It is exhausting to be the 'enemy'. You are doing so great. You know, after reading your post about forgiveness and things you said after the A (that you can get past it, see how it happened, etc), I realized while I told him some of the same things, I would *always* end it with "This will always be devastating to me" or "I will always be affected by this affair". Wow. I bet H saw I might never let it go, or would always hold it over his head.
Sorry for the hijack, but your post was very thought provoking. You are an amazing person.
