Today was nice...I addition to the ecard search that happened this evening with you guys, this morning me & my Mom went to pick out some tomato and herb plants for her garden, and then I went and got *another* makeover.
Kalni, the name of the special all natural brand is bare escentuals, also called bare minerals. It is actually shown in clinical tests that it improves your skin (!!) instead of messing it up. I don't know if they have it in greece...?? It is originally from san francisco but it seems to be kind of big here in the US so maybe it is an international phenomenon??
The makeover lady was so nice, and did something more appropriate for everyday wear than the mac makeover. I also told her about FACERCISE!!! and she got really excited and wrote down the title. (Lisa--I am so excited to share the facercise news with everyone!!!) I also got many makeup *items*--including this really nice lipstick that smells like CHOCOLATE!!!! MMMMMMmmmmMMMMM!! and I picked up some sunglasses for one of my mom's birthday presents tomorrow (she wanted the same new pair I got), and also a sparkly new hairclip for my new haircut... transformations everywhere!!
Kalni, I am very excited that both you and Lisa are also mac girls!!! Someday we should all get mac makeovers together, and then put on our peep toe high heels and ... men of the world beware!!! Everyone is invited to our makeover party!!!
Lisa--the crazy sparkly black volcanic ash looking eye shadow is called "solar bits pearlized pigment clusters"
K--the bare escentuals is all powder based and apparently the application process is different than normal makeup-- like you put on the foundation with this big stubby brush called a "kabuki brush". It's supposed to feel lighter than other makeup, like you can actually sleep in it!
OK, so I got a confirmation that he "picked up" his ecard this evening around 5.30, almost 24 hours after I sent it... ??? what does this mean? He didn't check his email for 24 hours (unlikely)??? he saw it and didn't have time to pick it up until later ?? He saw it and didn't bother to look at it until later because he didn't care? He saw it and didn't bother to look at it until later because he was guilty/afraid??? lbkldfjksldfkdfjdkdkaldjfdak overanalysis time!!!
Other than that... today was really nice. I made some SPECIAL BIRTHDAY MUFFINS for my Mom today--both chocolate chip and the cherry lemon-- and also made ricotta cheese from scratch just for fun, to share with her. Ridiculously easy, you just heat some milk and a little bit of lemon juice or other edible acid in a pan, wait 15 mintues while heating and occaisionally stirring, and then when it separates into curds and whey you just pour it through a cheesecloth into a colandar and voila, ricotta cheese!!
My family LOVED the muffins which made me really happy b/c it was the first time I made them for them!!
My brother and I did a bunch of errands and birthday shopping for my mom together and had lots of fun! And then my family went out to eat at our favorite mexican place and I got amazing vegetable fajitas with the freshest tortillas I have ever tasted... YUM!!!
It is crazy. This is probably the first time in the 10 years since I left my parents' house that I have felt really happy and comfortable being at home with my family. My relationships with my mom and brother have shifted sooooo much, and I am going to be sad to leave tomorrow!! And my brother and mom keep asking me to come home to visit again later in the summer... amazing!!!
I am a little nervous about all the things I have to do between now and when I leave tomorrow for the festival... I don't think I am going to be really prepared for the festival even if I pull an all nighter or something... AICH!!!!!!!
The past two nights in a row I dreamed about B. There was some nice kissing in one of the dreams but still a very heavy feeling. I want him to be in a good place!!
(((((T))))) Hey! Don't obsess too much about when he read it. It could even be a delay in when you get the confirmation. I know I once got a "thank you" email before I got the confirmation. And, on a weekend, who knows when he might get to his e-mail. Don't panic!
Yummy on the muffins! How do you think they'd be with while wheat flour? I have to figure out how to make stuff without sugar, though!
Stay calm, and keep being a great T! You are making progress in a really tricky situation. If you are going to succeed, it is going to be slow, but the way you are doing it is the only way it is going to work!
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!! I never would have thought there would be some kind of delay like that.
You know what? There is a special product you can get called Whole Wheat PASTRY flour. They sell it at whole foods. You can substitute it in for normal flour and it comes out pretty much the same. The flavor is slightly different but it doesn't screw up the texture. It's silky and fluffy, like a real pastry flour, not like a gritty whole wheat flour. Sugar, hm. You could try substituting Sage Honey or Tupelo Honey, which have the lowest glycemic impact of all honeys. We would have to check and make some adjustments in the recipe because the liquid proportions would change. Or maybe investigate the glycemic impact of some kind of natural sugar substitute like Stevia??? (But don't use fake sugar, it totally f%$#s you up!!! did you see that new study that just came out that found out that fake sugar causes obesity in rats?????) Also, the cherry muffin recipe only has 1/2 a cup of sugar to start with.
I remember a while back I promised you a bunch of healthy recipes with mushrooms, sweet potatoes etc. let me know if you are still interested and what would be the best way to get them to you! I am leaving my parents' house tomorrow and will be at a music festival where I don't have access to my cookbooks or my Mom's. But when I get back from that I could get them all to you!!!!
I heard back from B and he suggested lunch the week after next...???!!!!
Here is his latest:
Thanks for the card! I had a great birthday with single malts to spare. It was crowded here in the apt, but I enjoyed having people over.
This next week I am pretty busy, but I will be in town the following week with not much to do (June 8 - 14). If you are in the city then, we should meet for lunch or something. I hope you have a great time at LyricaFest!
-b
So that's the fastest reply yet.... like 32 hours or something.
Things to note: -HE SUGGESTED THAT WE MEET FOR "LUNCH OR SOMETHING"???? Wha...??? sitting down across from each other for an extended period of time WHILE EATING???? I was expecting MAYBE a cup of tea at the longest, or some kind of active activity like taking a walk or looking at a cool exhibit JUST SO WE WOULDN"T have to sit down and stare at each other because *I* thought it would be too much pressure!!!!! -he had a great birthday -He had people over for his birthday??!! It is nice to hear that he is having a party for himself, something he hasn't (in my knowledge) done since before he left Boston 2 years ago. The last time I checked he had *two* friends who lived in New York and then the three other string quartet members. So either he has new friends, or all of his friends that I know about showed up for the party and his apartment was still crowded between the 6 of them (and it would be... tiny NYC crappy apt). I am hoping that it is the "made new friends" option though also I think he has a different aesthetic about parties (he just likes to have lots of people over, I usually only invite the closest friends). -He told me when he would be in town specifically -He will be in NYC while I am in NJ -It would be relatively easy for me to go into town to meet him for something... maybe not lunch unless we get a scheduled day off at the festival, b/c rehearsals are usually during the day, like all day long... -He actually signed his name just like that, "b", at the end, instead signing his name....??? -the email is kind of short-ish but yet full of information. My e-card just said, "Dear B, Happy Birthday, TRANSFORMER" so he wrote more than I did.
Hm... I had planned to stick around in NYC to see him AFTER the festival was over on the 15th. Now it looks like we will probably try to see each other WHILE the festival is happening. I can't tell if he will be in town AFTER the 14th or not, he just said he WOULD be in town before. The festival will keep me SOOOO busy, which will be good for my PMA and GAL, but it will mean that I'll probably need to streamline my preparations ... I prob won't have time to go to a department store to have someone do my makeup, and pick up a prescription for BETA BLOCKERS, and go to an energy healer so they can put me in a totally chilled out trance before I meet up with B... I am only kinda kidding here.
OK guys what do I do???? It seems like it might be advantageous to try to meet him closer to the 8th than the 14th so on the extremely off chance that he wants to see me again we could do that without having everything spaced too close together.
Should I bounce back something to him like "So glad you had a great birthday, your party sounds awesome!! It would be great to meet up with you while you're in town, I'll know more about my schedule when I get my lyricafest schedule tomorrow""?? Or do I wait until I have the schedule....??
BE STILL MY BEATING HEART... He is asking to see me for some reason, one of my major original goals!!
On a completely different note, my Mom LOVED her presents and then after we opened them and had cake she asked me if I could come home and live with her and my Dad and my brother again and we could be "a real family." She was "kinda" joking but I actually started crying and she started crying too. I am crying now again just typing about it. I feel like I belong with my family for the first time in 10 years I think. I don't understand what happened but something has definitely been healed, I am not even sure how, but it is so awesome to feel.
((((((LOVE TO EVERYONE))))))
I eagerly await your instructions (cough) I mean suggestions...
I will look for that flour. I might be able to use it for pizza! I will be doing some more research about what to do about sugar. That's the biggest puzzler!
I'd be happy have some useful recipes! When you get back from your trip, we'll figure it out!
OMG T!!! YAY!!! Back flips and double hand stands!! So thrilled for you.
I'm not sure about you're reply and the timing with your rehearsals etc. I think you should trust your gut and just do it - your DB has got good results so far! Maybe tell him what suits you best and let him figure out the best time to meet up.
Also you are wonderful! Dont stress too much about the outside appearances of all your 180's - your inner 180's are going to shine through! You dont want to be too different - a bit of normal is good (as long as you feel good about yourself!) Do things that you feel comfortable about.
Hey T!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! This is SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK, so I would write back and say that you';re going to get your Lyricafest schedule tomorrow and that you'll know more about your schedule when you get that, but ask him if there are any days that would be better or worse for him. And say that lunch sounds good- it'd be really good to catch up.
FANTABULOUS!!!!! I'm so super happy to hear how well B is responding!
You guys had better not reconcile before me and my H
And my brother and mom keep asking me to come home to visit again later in the summer... amazing!!!
I am hoping that it is the "made new friends" option though also I think he has a different aesthetic about parties (he just likes to have lots of people over, I usually only invite the closest friends). 