Well here we go again. W was out till 5am again. This is getting kind of tiresome. I woke up about 4:15 and went where is she? So walked through out condo she hadnt been home from work at all. Work gets out at 12:30am. The thing is that she has been talking for the last couple of days about having another child. When I woke up today and thought wow I am not going to have my W out all night while I watch 2 childern. I will not do it. so 4:30 rolls around and I text message my W and say where are you? I dont get anything back till about 5:15 all it says is downstairs. So im botherd(sp) by this. When she gets upstairs I say in an angry tone(bad dbing here) where were you. All she says is out. Could there be more of an open ended answere? So I say out where? Then she tells me she went out with some of her friends to breakfast and then went to play pool with a different friend. Then she says are you going to be controlling again? That kind of hit me from left field. I tell her this is not about control it is about curtesy(sp). that she should have let me know that she was going to be out. She said I tought you would be asleep. I said I dont think that makes a difference. I then told her I will not be staying home with 2 kids all night while my W is OUT with her friends. Im not going to do that. It really bothers me that this even happened. She acts like this is no big deal that oh I can go and do anything I want. which she is right she can. Which leaves me with other choices that I can make.
I am so mad that she called me controlling I just want to yell. I have worked very hard not to be controlling, I say something to her one time and I mean ONE time about her being out late and all of a sudden Im controlling. That just really burns me up.
I have worked so hard at this I really think I need a break. If any of you have words of encourgment I really could use them today.
