I don't know if I have ever posted to you before but I just wanted to say that I understand what you are going throughI was there years ago.
I can say that the first year is the hardest.But now things are much better.But they didn't get better til I stopped focusing on my ex.I stopped caring what he did.I started to focus on me.I made new friends,I got a job.I was a stay at home mom for 17 years.
I started to take time just for myself.As a mother I felt guilt for that.But I got over that when I saw that it made my children happy to see their mother happy.
Your focus needs to be on you and your children right now.And beating yourself up is not productive.
Spending a day in PJ doing nothing is doing something.It is restoring your body.Maybe next time you plan on laying around get some healthy food.Make that day really about restoring your wellbeing.Get a uplifting book.Or a trashy novel.Make a long hot bubble bath,Paint your nails.
Missing your phone call with your children is not a crime.In the long run they will not remember it.They will remember all the good things you did.Just let them know the truth.You were asleep and didn't know what time it was.They will understand.
Sometimes taking care of yourself is some of the best mothering you can do for your children.
Later Friend Briget
The grass is always greener over the septic tank... Erma Bombeck
Treat hate with Love... DR. Martin Luther King
