So I have ran into a tough strech as of the last 2 days. I really dont know what to do. Lately I have been having these thought why should I put up with this. We have money problems. Which is making me crazy. Yet the only reason we have problems is becuase for 3 months W didnt work or do anything. Now all I hear is her whining about how far we are in doubt. I just want to say maybe if you hadnt been so stupid that we would have these problems. I know that is harsh but that is the way im feeling right now.
I am also feeling like do I really want to keep putting up with all of this. Im being rejected all the time by her for intamicy. We have all these issues to work out and nothing is being solved. I feel like I have put everything I have into this and its just not working. I also feel like why do I want to be with some one that wont show me the affection that I need. I wonder to myself why she is so inconsiderate. I just want her to do these things and they arent happening.
I really need to go back to the beginning and open my beginners mind and really start setting goals again. Right now im just not sure what to set. So I guess i have some hard work ahead of me. Anyway I have to go to bed.
