RTL, I don't think it is good to constantly suppress your anger. It is normal to be angry when someone acts with hostility against you. I agree with everyone that you need to let go. I know it is not really what you want to do and you are afraid to give up. Like I said before , if it is to be , it will be. At this point there is nothing you can do that you haven't done that will change things. Your W has to want to be with you and meet you half way if you are to get back together. Allowing her to continue to be emotionally abusive to you will not make this happen. Perhaps do a true 180 and say , "no more!" There are only four words you should say to her, "yes, no, where and when"