OK, so I got a confirmation that he "picked up" his ecard this evening around 5.30, almost 24 hours after I sent it... ??? what does this mean? He didn't check his email for 24 hours (unlikely)??? he saw it and didn't have time to pick it up until later ?? He saw it and didn't bother to look at it until later because he didn't care? He saw it and didn't bother to look at it until later because he was guilty/afraid??? lbkldfjksldfkdfjdkdkaldjfdak overanalysis time!!!

Other than that... today was really nice. I made some SPECIAL BIRTHDAY MUFFINS for my Mom today--both chocolate chip and the cherry lemon-- and also made ricotta cheese from scratch just for fun, to share with her. Ridiculously easy, you just heat some milk and a little bit of lemon juice or other edible acid in a pan, wait 15 mintues while heating and occaisionally stirring, and then when it separates into curds and whey you just pour it through a cheesecloth into a colandar and voila, ricotta cheese!!

My family LOVED the muffins which made me really happy b/c it was the first time I made them for them!!

My brother and I did a bunch of errands and birthday shopping for my mom together and had lots of fun! And then my family went out to eat at our favorite mexican place and I got amazing vegetable fajitas with the freshest tortillas I have ever tasted... YUM!!!

It is crazy. This is probably the first time in the 10 years since I left my parents' house that I have felt really happy and comfortable being at home with my family. My relationships with my mom and brother have shifted sooooo much, and I am going to be sad to leave tomorrow!! \:\( And my brother and mom keep asking me to come home to visit again later in the summer... amazing!!!

I am a little nervous about all the things I have to do between now and when I leave tomorrow for the festival... I don't think I am going to be really prepared for the festival \:\( even if I pull an all nighter or something... AICH!!!!!!!

The past two nights in a row I dreamed about B. There was some nice kissing in one of the dreams but still a very heavy feeling. I want him to be in a good place!!

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(((((LOVE TO EVERYONE)))))))))
REBECCA