That is a good point im trying to do those things now. It seemed to have worked over the last couple of days. Except for the intimacy part. Which is much needed.
Back to our Convo. I just remebered something. We got on the point of why she did what she did. She said that she knew that she was loved. She said she saw all these people that were married and divorced having fun. Going out to the clubs and stuff. I was and am really not super into it. I enjoy going out once in a while. Before the bomb I wouldnt have gone with her there. She said that she did all this more or less to prove a point, that she was going to go out and do what she wanted no matter what or who said anything to her. She has kind of done this before in our R just not to this extent before.
Im now thinking though that I cant keep being there for her when ever she feels that she needs to freak out and be different. Pull away from me and supposedly be herself. Now I basically let her do her own thing. I have come to the conclusion that she has to learn these things for herself. I also feel that if this happens again that I will not wait around for her to decide that I am again a good person. Im not saying that it will ever happen again. I am hoping that it doesnt happen again. I have learned that there are a lot of other women that would really like me for me type of a thing and im strong enough to not be married but really want to stay married. This is kind of a nice place to be.
