Lissie, thank you,I know you are right. I was not raised to let a man suck the life out of me.
I CANNOT let it consume. I was angry last night at the world. I couldn't get those negative thoughts out of my mind.
I let it get to me. It was achoice. I am stronger and better than this. Upside,honestly, the divorce doesn't bother me as much as H does at itmes. His behavior towards me, gets to me.
i was thinking about his family. His sis, especially. How if (and I believe he is) her H cheated on her how would she feel?
She acts like H being with OW is normal and that I am erased from their lives. I think she enjoys it. She has always been jealous of H and I.
It bothered me last night.
I pictured D7 playing happy family with H and OW at the beach.
D7 said Daddy swam far inthe ocean and didn't plat with her at the beach. She built sandcastles with OW.
I just wish ans pray this all ends. Sometimes I think I pray something ,anything and God doesn't hear me. But I know that isn't true.
I will be going with a friend to D7's martial arts class next week.
Life is good. God has blessed me. God will continue blessing me.
Even tho I do not want the X back. We are in the same boat.
The thought of these women with our children. Makes me sick.
I have to dig down deep, when I know it is X's weekend, and I tell my kids.
Ok. Listen to papi. Be good, and say your pleases and thank yous.
If Susan (ick) gives you anything, or if you are at her home, make sure you say thank you. Make sure you clean up after yourselves, but most of all have fun.
I say it with a smile and hug them
I walk them outside, I give their weekend bag to the X , and walk in and cry for about 2 minutes.
I used to cry longer, it is less now.
I don't know when or if I will ever be used to it.
I know the thought of your baby making sand castles with her makes you want to stick a pen in the OW's eye.
I know sugar. I think that we should try (gulp) to be thankful(gulp)
That at least these beyotches are being cordial and nice to our children.
I would rather have whoremonger be nice to my M&M, then hear some crazy story of her being mean or rude to them. I will be in jail.
So, even tho this hurts so much. We need to see something postivie in it mami. We need to start letting go of some of the hurt and anger, b/c these situations, are out of our control
ICK
I hate even saying all that, b/c i know how hard it is. It does not happen over night. YOu are going to be ok Sugar. Beautiful peeps like you win out in the long run.
Live Simply Love Generously Care Deeply Speak Kindly Leave the rest to God
