Lissie, thank you,I know you are right. I was not raised to let a man suck the life out of me.
I CANNOT let it consume. I was angry last night at the world. I couldn't get those negative thoughts out of my mind.
I let it get to me. It was achoice. I am stronger and better than this. Upside,honestly, the divorce doesn't bother me as much as H does at itmes. His behavior towards me, gets to me.
i was thinking about his family. His sis, especially. How if (and I believe he is) her H cheated on her how would she feel?
She acts like H being with OW is normal and that I am erased from their lives. I think she enjoys it. She has always been jealous of H and I.
It bothered me last night.
I pictured D7 playing happy family with H and OW at the beach.
D7 said Daddy swam far inthe ocean and didn't plat with her at the beach. She built sandcastles with OW.
I just wish ans pray this all ends. Sometimes I think I pray something ,anything and God doesn't hear me. But I know that isn't true.
I will be going with a friend to D7's martial arts class next week.
Life is good. God has blessed me. God will continue blessing me.
