ndsm....you have good men helping you. I hope you listen to them.
sg....I know, and I am....and there are a few good women in there...don't forget them.
I was unable to stay with my thread since the post that got all of the responses (work, and ironically because of all the time with W)... but I am going back to re-read each and every one and do the best I can to touch base with all of you.
I am touched and amazed by the caring people on this site. I can only hope that some day I will be able to offer advice and words of encouragement to some of you.