Hey Aud, Just checking in. Sounds like you've got good perspective. You have a good handle on yourself and your emotions. Wonderful!
My gets very uncomfortable when he is trying to talk about his feelings. It makes him squirm. The difference between me and my H is that I an SO aware of my every emotion, which is probably why I have trouble with anxiety. My H is not at all in touch with his feelings or aware of what he is feeling at any time. That is probably why he's so cool, calm and collected. Somehwere in between would probably be ideal. Anyway, just know that it is part of who your H is. HE doesn't like to share. Perhaps you can let him know that although it's uncomfortable for him, maybe he can share a bit so you can feel closer to him.
How is your h doing with the spiritual thing?
Anyway, hang tight. You're doing awesome.
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track