That is the thing this is different than before. Not completely different. I will also tell you that this is not completely about Making Love either. Im tired of being the one that iniates some kind of touch 90% of the time. It is so frustrating that I try and do everything right, Her LL is quality time. When we are together I talk to her about everything, I look her in the eyes I listen to what is going on bad in her life, I validate. I do all of that kind of stuff. I am completely drained.
About 2 weeks ago she said that she would give me a back massage for me doing something for her. So I thought to myself ok great and I went and did this for her. So a week went by with out the message. So I asked her about it and she said oh yeah I will do that but not tonight. Another couple of days go by and I ask her again. She says saturday after our date I will give you a great one. Im thinking to myself great that will be wonderful. So Saturday rolls around and Im really sore from working out the day before and am thinking this will be great tonight. So like I said yesterday we went out and get home we have shakes so after the shakes I say so what about the massage. In a little bit. I say ok great. So we go up to bed and i ask her again and now she is to tired and her hands hurt and her stomach hurts and on and on and on.
I will tell you all what i have is good. But unless things change. I dont know what im going to do because I really feel that I cant live like this for the rest of my life. You all are right that I need some patience, I will be more patient. If nothing changes though I dont know if I can stay this way.
