Im going to tell you all right now I dont know if Im going to be a success story. Im so tired emotionally that I can no longer keep this up really. Im tired of feeling rejected. Im tired of iniating everything in our R. I know this all sounds crazy but im actually thinking of leaving. I know maybe right now is not the best time to be thinking this with the hurt that I feel but I hurt so badly right now that I really dont know what else to do.
We went out on a date today. We went to dinner, and to see a movie. through out all of it my W seemed fine she was cuddling up to me she seemed happy. She even hinted that we might make love and stuff. The second we get home all I start hearing is Im so tired and my stomach hurts and this and that. So instantly I should have realized that there would be absolutly nothing. It was like the second we got home a switch was flipped on. That says ohhh no we cant make love because that would be me putting forth effort. Even though she knows how much I need it. We talked about it a little bit and I hear oh yeah we will probably make love just cuddle with me for a while. So 2 hours later there is nothing and im pretty much all cuddled out. So here I sit. Waiting for a W who gives a Sh!t about me at all. Right now I dont really think she does. Its easy to be affectionate when we are out be when we are home nothing. Anyway Im just so damn tired of all this.
