I guess I'm supposed to affirm or something in there somewhere, but I was numb. I didn't know what to say or I was just too hesitant to say anything, I guess. I could have affirmed her back hurt and I'll probably ask about it tomorrow, but she's so mean, unpredictable, and irrational that I think it is best to say nothing for a while.
Yes, it's called 'detaching'. It's for your mental health. You're doing fine. Trust me, it's hard. I know. I've finally gotten to that point also.
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It is depressing, to be honest. It is so sad. Why am I here? What did I do to deserve this? Why did I foolishly expect my W to be as committed to our M as I was? I thought we were partners forever and through anything. I was obviously wrong.
I guess this really is my fault after all.
Um, no. It's not your 'fault'. You don't 'deserve this'. Nobody does.
Look at her behavior. How can you blame yourself for the bad choices of another person? The only person you can control is you. Blame is wasted energy.
She's showing you a side of her you had no idea existed - or if you did, you were willing to overlook it until it grew to what it is now.
She will crash eventually and have to pay for all of her misdeeds. Karma is a bitch that way.
And when she does, you'll be the one who has to decide if you want to risk being around her again.
