Yes, I know I have to stop. I've done all I can up to this point and now I need to go dark. I'm not sure if this divorce can be busted b/c it would require a lot of backtracking and recanting of lies by W. I just don't think she's got that in her.
Anyway, I called D and told her goodnight. D insisted on handing the phone to W. W got on and told me how she'd probably need a massage b/c her back hurt so much from all the bending she did today. I didn't say a word. It felt odd, but I didn't speak. I wanted to say "I hope your back gets better" but I said nothing.
W continued on and said D was really good today. I responded to that by saying "she sounds happy." W continued a bit talking about how D was so great for her today and I just listened and didn't respond.
I guess I'm supposed to affirm or something in there somewhere, but I was numb. I didn't know what to say or I was just too hesitant to say anything, I guess. I could have affirmed her back hurt and I'll probably ask about it tomorrow, but she's so mean, unpredictable, and irrational that I think it is best to say nothing for a while.
I've got another appointment on the books w/ a DB coach, so I'll talk w/ her about what to do from here. It is depressing, to be honest. It is so sad. Why am I here? What did I do to deserve this? Why did I foolishly expect my W to be as committed to our M as I was? I thought we were partners forever and through anything. I was obviously wrong.
