"I was sat here wondering how to respond to your last post without sounding complacent, smug, arrogant, distant, angry, crazy, ready to say if anyone was to walk now it would be me etc, etc. (remember I see things differently now)."
Dear god.. why would you have to hold your tone with me..
"No, my No 1 goal is Barcelona. I'm gonna take W to Barcelona in September for our anniversary. Do you know how many times I've promised W Barcelona and then when she peed me off I just cancelled out of spite. Well I'm gonna go for it, book it and surprise her. Yep I'm gonna do that."
That seems like a good place to talk.. sounds promising.
"My politest reply would be no f**king chance, I can see He** freezing over before that happens."
Cough.. cough... I seem to remember you saying the same thing about you and wife ever getting back together and being happy.. We know how that one turned out.. well.. semi happy anyway.
If you tell me you are good.. I am fine with that. I didn't have a lot of doubt.. just a little.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.