I guess curiousity got the better of me and I have logged back in.
I don't really feel I trapped him. I just broke up his affair. If he doesn't want to be here, he can still leave. I don't know which way he would have gone without my meddling, but I am not holding him here.
I have a disability that will one day will cause me to not be able to work. I am off work now and don't know if it will be too painful to continue when I go back. I guess there is a certain amount of desperation to keep my husband. BUT I do love him. I always have and I always will. This affair is so contrary to his character, that it takes my breath away everytime it pops into my head. So about 80 million times a day, my guts fall to the floor and I feel a little dizzy.
I don't know what will happen, he is becoming more like his old self. But I know our lives will never be the same. It is like an innocence lost. I hate that.
