Pregnant and trying to be stronger

[Forrest Gump]

"I know that I don't do things your way. Correct me if I'm wrong, but your way."

That is fine.. I have no issue with that at all. I am going to try and keep you heading down the right path. It is your life. I am just an observer.

"I'm getting really close to having this baby. My emotions (yes, I said the E word) ARE getting the best of me. It's extremely hard to be emotionless right now. Yesterday was a sad day for me. I felt pretty blue, but not horrible. I think it had a lot to do with lack of sleep, no contact with H and hormones. There are days when I feel really strong and refuse to put up with any crap from H. But, I bounce back and forth between those and days like yesterday. "

This is the hard part. I don't expect you to be great every day. If I have to kick you in the butt a little then OK. The thing is we all knew this was coming. Emotions, Hormones, Drama.. you just really have to work hard to pull yourself out of this. I know it seems impossible. If I could make it any easier I would. All I can do is bend your ear a little. You need to concentrate on you. 100%. You need to do things for yourself and get comfortable. Have books by the bed. Ice cream in the fridge. Ice in the ice maker. Anything to keep you busy. Whatever it is you like to do.. have lots of it close at hand. Sleeping is good.. the more of it you can do the easier it will be to handle the up and down swings.

Its hard for me to tell you exactly what to do. As I expect it is for other people posting here. I am not angry or mad.. I just want you to focus on making yourself comfortable.. whatever that means. I am not going anywhere I'll be right here typing my little bursts of info. Seriously.. the time is coming when you are going to need all your strength. I just want you to be prepared. For whatever is coming. Remember you want everything close at hand. Do your best to stop thinking about "Foolish Boy". Maybe take a little lesson from him.. and focus on what makes you happy right now.