I am feeling down today. Really no reason. Just one of those days that I miss the intimacy with WW. Just being able to call her at anytime. Just to see how she is. An occasional text from her telling me she is just thinking about me. The little things. I am deathly afraid of WW moving and taking the kids. I don't want to go through that.
Does doing what I'm doing accomplish that?
Does detaching and going dark accomplish that?
My whole life can't be a 180. Some things can and have been done. I only let her see the upbeat me. The happy me. I don't feel like I cater to her. I try to do a lot of AOK, but nothing overboard. Normal stuff. Things a husband should be doing for his wife.
Some here think that I'm doing good. Some think I'm doing terribly wrong.
I see most LBS's here are seperated. Some here had their spouse at home and now have become seperated or are getting seperated. Several on here are getting divorced or papers are getting signed or filed.
And now, I get a call from "B"! Just right now.
I took the call. She's just calling to see whats up. We talk a bit about our jobs, tickets she just got, insurance, her mother. I ask her if I can call her later.
Ok.
What the hell is going on? Why is this going on?
I feel like my emotions are going to burst! I am appearing normal to my coworkers and clients, but inside...
Its building.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
