Thanks you guys. H is actually coming over while I am at work - part of his avoidance strategy. I did leave a note for him - I got my perf eval at work and it was a good one. This is a job that I have had a lot of unhappiness abt - I was recruited for a pretty big promotion, had doubts abt it but took it anyway and regretted it almost fr day 1. I think my job stress is a big part of what came betw us in the last 2 yrs of M - but H always encouraged me to look at it dif and finally one day a yr ago something he said abt it "clicked". I still don't love the job, but have a much better attitude abt it - so I wrote him a thank you note on the back of the eval saying th any success I am having now is due to his support. I don't think this is "pursuing" - but even if it is, I am sick of my voice being silenced. I think I worded it ok. I also think saying thank you to H for his (past) support cannot be a bad thing.
me: 47 H: 48 he has 2 grown sons M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd) hit iceberg 6/07 S 9/26/07 before now