NikB #27 (still tentatively Piecing)

[NikB]

JAK, Trixi, Blindsided - thanks for checking in!

Doing pretty well. Fingers crossed on the time off - my boss is out til Tuesday so I'll find out then.

Jak - I'm doing good.

H is not talking much about it but I know the accident(s) are messing with his head a lot. The guy on Saturday there's some peace in knowing he was older. I forget if I mentioned there was a similar wreck on Sunday too. We had thought that guy was OK - but apparently not, he has a pretty serious spinal cord injury. H was very upset about that one last night. He'll recover but it's going to be a long hard road, it sounded like. He didn't talk much about his feelings on it but he talked for a long time about how he thinks the track should be redesigned to make it safer. I think that's the "guy" way to deal right? Figure out how to "fix" it?

Then said he wants to win the lotto and build his own track. I know it's a little thing but when he used to say stuff like this, it wasn't "we" at all. It kinda made me feel like if we had more $$, we'd be D'd. This time he talked about "us" owning a track and how cool it would be.

Yesterday he sent me a text too - "Hope you have a great day beautiful" with a smiley. I called him around lunch time to confirm the vacation dates to request and he was all excited, "Did you get my text?" I NEVER text so I honestly don't look at my phone much - I hadn't seen it yet but read it then and said "awww thank you so much! You are so sweet." He was glad I liked it.

I think this may be a 180 I should try... texting. I really, really despise texting - but when I think it through it's not really logical. It's because texting reminds me of when H's whole behavior changes started, and it's how he mostly communicated with OW. Sooo.. might be time to suck it up and try to let that go, and see if little texts during the day get a good response. Clearly it's a way he likes communicating now so might be worth a try.

Happy Friday all!!