Worse before Better?

[Sophie]

Hi Creed,

Something you said hit me differently this time for some reason...

Think long and hard, but remember at this point, you are the one protecting yourself and the kids financially...he is not. He's really not capable of much at all at this point, other than taking care of himself.

I struggle with whether the things he says, he is sure of....or whether they are just words that I shouldn't believe.

You say he isn't 'capable' of much at this point....and that really rings true that he is messed up and deep in MLC.

IF he were capable....then this would be about him truly moving on and not about MLC?

It gets easier, but there are always moments where I doubt myself, feel inadequate, ugly...blah,blah,blah.....

But, just like this instance, I SNAP out of that!!! I am happy...I'm just not happy with him; I'm not happy with our relationship, and his relationship with the kids and this family.

When I read about MLC, and understand what he is dealing with, how he is being affected by his actions...it helps. He isn't going to be very open, but he complains about everything when he talks to me.