He's "done". Period.

[7 Year Itch]

So yesterday was easy to LRT and I still screwed it up a bit. ACK! What is my problem?? Anyway, back on the wagon today.

H worked all day and into the night on an off duty job, so didn't even walk in the door until 10pm. Should have been easy to avoid him, no? No, I screw it up by talking about health insurance issues, and how I'm now nervous an elective surgery I had planned to have will now be considered a prexisting condition when I have to switch insurances. I am off his insurance the day the divorce is final. He wants to file in like 3 weeks, so just doing the math, that is not going to last into Fall, which is when I had planned to have the surgery for optimal scheduling reasons. I brought it up as it's one thing that hadn't been brought up yet, but I had been talking about for awhile. WHY did I do that?? I'm an idiot.

OK< back to square one AGAIN! Take 4 or 5 now? LOL

Oh well. I'm taking my girls for a picnic lunch today to the park. After that we'll do some grocery shopping. Then we'll all have dinner tonight, then I have PLENTY of weeding in my garden to do tonight ,so I think I can sufficiently avoid him. Then most of tomorrow should be nice and busy and I can stay away too. Sunday should be easy as well as I'll have church in the morning with the girls, then by the time we get home he'll be gone on an off duty job for the day. So I'll just have to get through that night. Weekends are harder because we are around each other so much more.

I think I'm going to go see the Sex and the City movie this Sat. night with my girlfriend, then go to a wine bar in town that has nice acoustic blues music. Should be fun. I plan to come home from my hair cut and waxing on Sat, get myself ALL gussied up then leave. Not planning on telling him what I'm doing and with who. And usually when I go out with my girls it's casual (jeans and a sweater, or fleece kinda deal), so I'm purposely going to DO it up. I figure at the very least, it could be nice to have someone glance my way at the bar. I could use a self esteem boost these days.

Chris