For the first time in a long time I snet my W and email that was not in response on a kid issue. I told her that I understood and was concerned and offered her my support 100%. I got a thank you in return. I did not throw out the cancel/put on hold the D while these other issues get resolved idea. I may if there is an opening but I havent yet. I keep hoping that she will suggest it.
I had kid events last night and things were very calm between us. There was alot of calm communication and some validation. I am really trying to be her friend but not pursue. I keep praying, focusing on pleasing God and being as nice as possible to my W without pursuing. She has been reading some religious info on Marriage and D. I see that as a small but positive sign. She appears to be trying to justify the D in her mind religiously. This shows that there is some conflict and doubt. I am really worn out emotionally and physically by all of this. When this first started I could not get to sleep or stay asleep. Now it is all I want to do.
