Bring on the Rain - Part 2

[kat727]

Good for you. You are looking out for yourself and your baby and that is the most important thing. Yeah, I think he is going to be one very surprised man.
kat

[SueS]

Thanks ladies!

Yeah, I'm sure he'll be surprised. But, I just have to remember that he's told me that we're done. He has asked me on quite a few occasions if I've found a new place to live. Hell, he even asked me on Wed. if I was planning on taking D4 and moving back to where my parents/sister live (6 hrs away). So, I can't stop my plans or what he's already told me to plan for just because his confusion is showing. Not necessarily confusion as to whether he wants me or not, but confusion about his life in general.

SueS

[LL44]

Sue. I am so proud of you!!! The steps are so hard for you (making concrete living arrangements), especially when its not what you want. But you are at a point where you can see your future, and its going to hurt now, but you will be fine. You know this now, and its ok to be a little excited about your new place, making it all your own.

Your H confuses the heck out of me too!! My H never wanted 'quality' time with me, since this all happened. He wants sex of course, but nothing before or after. Wow. As long as you can keep your heart/head in check, I would continue to spend time with him for your D's sake.

Stay strong! He is so lost, its sad, isn't it?

[fightingirish]

wow sues.. great on the apartment.. my opinion is he is really going to *freak* about it... it will be a very "real" reality check for him... It will be interesting...

[Rob1231]

Hi Sue,

Geez, it seems like H thinks that you are perfectly willing to be the second woman in his life, or worse yet, 'the one he can turn to if OW doesn't work out.'

You deserve SO MUCH BETTER. You deserve to be first and only! You deserve to be respected and cherished! Settle for nothing less!

[saffie]

Sue,

I also am very proud of you.......and every time you feel like getting sucked back in just think that he would probably do this again to you in the future if you don't take a firm hard stand now. If you do still want him as your H then better to let him go for a while and live with OW and her 4 kids and see just how that isn't so good. Let him learn a good hard lesson....and then.....if YOU want him back......you will be in a stronger position to consider it. I think it will be such a shock to him to not be able to sweet talk you back into what he wants you to do.

Make him dance to YOUR tune.

[SweetRedd]

Sue,

You are amazing and in control of your life! It's good to see you moving forward to take care of yourself and D4 no matter what your H decides to do. Now at least you can see what you're facing in the future rather than reacting to his craziness. You go girl Huggggs!

Sheila

[SueS]

Hi everyone!

You're all so wonderful to post to me. Saffie, I was just wondering about you yesterday. I'll email you soon. You too Sheila. I've been meaning to email or call you.

Last night D4 and I had a bit of a rough night. She was just a bit crabby and I was tired. Not a good mix. We made it through though with hugs, kisses & I love you's!

H came home from work close to 10:00 pm. He changed his clothes and left to work out. Before leaving, he asked if I was okay because I was laying in bed, quiet and kind of dozing off. Then he came to the side of the bed, rubbed my arm and said....wake me up early and I'll make us breakfast, okay. I woke up a couple of times during the night. The first time was to comfort D4. The second time I just woke up on my own. It was 3:10 am and H was not home yet. I was a bit worried because it was raining heavy in our area last night, but I didn't call. About 15 minutes later I heard the garage open. It was him. So, H was "working out" until nearly 3:30 am. Who has doubts now that his relationship with OW is on the rocks. Not me!

I tried to wake H up this morning as he asked, but he didn't really respond. I just told him I was leaving for work & out the door I went. As I walked down the hall, my odd, confused feelings of finding the new apartment and having a little more concrete plans kind of subsided. H's coming home at 3:30 am helped that.

A good friend of mine said that they way H is acting right now she imagines us splitting up, going our own ways for a while, only for him to come back and want to try again. I told her that I'm not so sure of that but one never knows. It will be my decision though if that happens.

Well, need to get busy.

Thanks- SueS

[Puppy Dog Tails]

3:30am. Unbefreakinlieavable.

Well, at least you have clarity, right? What an azz.

Hugs, Sue,

Puppy

[SueS]

Hi everyone-

Well, this is probably one of the first times in a long time that I've had the opportunity to post on the weekend. I hope everyone is having a good one. We're having a nice, sunny weekend. It's great.

H came home from work last night, had pizza with us & the two of us watched a movie. H had to work today and then said he was going golfing with a bunch of guys from work. H got up early, left to work out and then was just going to work.

D4 and I had a really great day! I slept in...well, just laid around (felt great!) with D4 watching her tv shows in my room. I signed my apartment lease today. I hope D4 wasn't paying much attention, as the woman at the apartment said, what do you think of your new home honey? After that, she and I just shopped. Probably shouldn't have, but got a bunch of stuff we both needed (sandals, summer clothes....etc.). It was fun. We also went out for lunch & sat outside. Just a fun day!!

I told a friend of mine the other day that I got my apartment. She asked how it felt. I started crying. I said, Well, it feels odd. It's good because now I don't have to worry about where I'm going. But, I know I'm going without my H. She said that she pictures us splitting and being one of those couples that comes back together at some point in time.....be it a year from now or 10 years from now. She said she knows that it's the best thing for D4 and I right now, but that maybe this split will make H realize what he's lost. I told her that it will depend on what I want then, not him.

Have a good weekend!

SueS