Having him around as a father rather than a spouse is a learning curve, don't you think?
My mother was chiding me a few days ago, "Get over it already. I've accepted he's the father of my grandchildren and someone who's hurt you. Stop replaying things and get over it."
Huh?
The balancing act for me.. is as I teeter totter on the seesaw.. the reality of what is 'now' differs from what I wish. What I wish may never or may have been a reality at some point.
Either way, I can't change what he's doing. I find the balance between hope and reality, I can slide down either side, I can choose to hop off. One thing I do know, when you're the only one sitting on a seesaw, you're going nowhere fast.
