I've been grappling with my spouse not wanting me, who I am... don't even get me thinking about what we shared. Goodness I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a hug. Come to think of it, that would be a little creepy.. so enjoy the virtual hugs!
So much grief and letting go. I seem to do it like shavings.. soap, chocolate, ice, wood.. whatever image fits best. The whole of it seems so overwhelming that I just shave wee slivers at a time.
What hits me most is the effect on the kids and how it will affect them. I know I sold my soul to keep the family intact. I guess learning and implementing excellent communication skills, setting boundaries.. oh shoot.. being healthy in mind, spirit and body.. would have been a better alternative. You just never know how far down you are until well cap blows.
As odd and as heartbreaking as it sounds, he seems to want to take care of you and the girls.
I'm babbling.. but want you to know lots of love, hugs, warm fuzzies, prayers and good thoughts are going your way.
