Hon you are go to take a deep breath. You can't compare your H to OM it is not fair to H or to you. Think about what lead you to fall in love with H in the first place. Please, lots of women fake an "O" so I don't think that can be an excuse. Loving actions beget loving feelings. Start little and slow. You will get there. Tons of hugs. kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory