Sara, Kat, and Jeff...thank goodness for you guys...always checking on me. I just feel like I am in one screwed up life. Between my lack of judgement and our marriage problems......what a mess.
Sara- The lack of sex life has always been a problem. He has a Lower drive. Now, after the affair, I know what I've been missing. I wish I didn't. I realize that I will need to make the first move. I know he is ready to be physical. I am sincerely worried about bursting into tears while being intimate. The "snake charmer" and "point at you from across the room" comment made me laugh. Thank you.
Your tips on how to relax are good ones. I can see myself doing that. But, I won't want to do more. I'm crying as I say this....I just don't feel anything when I kiss him...no passion....how can I fake the other, when I can't even do that?????
The mind....how do I think of him as sexy? I mean....I'm trying to do it now.....???????????
Jeff- I agree that it is physically and mentally healthy. I really want to do this, but I want to do it "right".
