Holding Pattern

[JWS]

WOW I just hand an hour long texting conversation with my W. I was the one to start it but I’ll take it. I was feeling down and it just seemed right so I texted HI. She responded right away and we had a bit of a talk.

i did great. No R talk, to M talk, nothing clingy or needy or anything. we talk about her job search, my job, small talk about the cars, the about a friends wedding this weekend we both missed. she said she was really sad about that. she was playful and witty not rude at all. she told me to tell everyone Hi for her. I did say that they all missed her and that was the closest to anything i got.

it was a good talk. I told her I had a long day and needed a nap before i had to do something this evening. I started it but I got to end it too. i said "I’ll talk to you later ok" and she said "ciao for now"

Now the most important part is to not let this affect me emotionally and go back to being dark for a while, to give her time to make the next move, or if I do after a while it will at least seem like I am not needy. I am excited that she responded it has been over a month since I have heard a single thing from her.

I hate the fact that the highlight of my month is that my W texted me back, but for now that’s ok. Again keep reminding me to stay level headed and not to excite myself.