Journaling:

Strange things happening...LL is being nice...but sending cryptic messages (nothing new) but I am actually getting courageous enough to enquire...for example:

LL: ...just sang with the mariachis (apparently he was in a bar)...but I don't want you to think that I stand up or grab the mic. I just ramble on, basically....

Vali: HA! Doubt u ramble ever! You always seem to know what u r doing...u don't do anything without thinking it through

LL: Yes, I ramble more often than not. And I must respectfully disagree about being smart and thinking things through. I kind of see myself the opposite - doing things without thinking them through! :-) (he even typed the smiley...WTF?)

Vali: So why do you things w/o thinking them through?

LL: I wish I could say I had a real thought out plan and often think I do. And I’m often wrong. . . :-) (again with the smiley!)

Vali: What the heck are you planning?!?!?!?!? LOL!

Okay, so the exchange was friendly-like...who knows what is going on in this exchange...no reply yet but I don't expect one either...I am always surprised when he responds...part of my 'letting go' thing. It is so wonderfully liberating!


I need to go purchase a big bag of M & M's...or a Heath bar...

Love to all the peeps! GO SPURS GO!!!!


Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller