I resolve NOT to humiliate myself the way I did AGAIN tonight. After our nice lunch together today I got it in my head that I would be super nice and invite him for dinner tonight......I'm just so tired of looking pathetic. I WON'T open myself up for that again.
I think this is a good one. If he's already stayed for an event/occassion, don't ask him to stay for longer; you need to end interactions first when you can (but nicely). And I don;t think you would have looked pathetic inviting him, just nice, as you are. But maybe if/when you do decide to invite him to do something next time, have no expectations with it- that way it won't be so disappointing if he refuses (for whatever reason)
Originally Posted By: mishka422
Just really tired of being a fool. I won't permit myself to be one anymore. GET IT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL MISHKA! HE DOES NOT WANT YOU AND WILL NOT EVER WANT YOU AGAIN. HE IS JUST THROWING ME BONES TO KEEP ME DANGLING.
Mishka- I really don't think you're being or have been, a fool. Your H is not done with you, as far as I can tell from reading your posts. But I do think it's going to take a long time for him to get better- he has a long journey ahead of him and is going to send confusing signals. Noticing them is NOT foolish. It shows how loving and constant you are.
((((Mishka)))) I hope you're having a better day today.
