puppy She changed her mind about her marriage.... I can change my mind about what I want to do Saturday night
kat You are right, I need to find my place in life, these days in Santa Barbara where wonderful and I was truly happy. I try not to lecture her, but sometimes she talks like everything is OK and she is not doing anything wrong - I HAVE TO say that what she is doing IS wrong - then she asks.... why?.... and I start boiling... WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHY???? YOU ARE DESTROYING A FAMILY we have 2 small kids, there are also some responsibilities here.... no? then she says, "I tried to save this marriage but with no results... and I say.... "what did you try???".... and she answers... "I tried my own way".... here I am puzzled.... Your own way??? did it work??...... she answer "obviously not".... ok did you try "ANYTHING ELSE" besides your "own way"?..... and she says.... "I that point I was to tired to try anything else.... at that point I just wanted out".
It is all bulls**t... she fell for somebody at work..... and she wasn't able to stop the relation for the sake of her family.... she went for it.... this is unacceptable. I have been and I am a very good husband and father, I know I am far from perfect, and I made mistakes, but I never did anything against my W or kids....
I need some meditation.... thank you guys for being here - I would go nuts without you
