I know that many here will think that I am crazy, and maybe I am...
h has agreed to meet with my IC next week, with me there. We are out of negotiations, now, so there really isn't any worry of him using info about me or the marriage against me, if that was ever the case.
I need all of this layed out on the table. And it has to come from someone else, not me. She has told me that she really doesn't think that there will be the positive outcome that I hope for, but is willing to do it if it is what I want.
I need to try to save my family one last time. I don't think I can let go without that; I'm not sure if I will ever be able to let go. And I know that leaves me stuck in self-pity and misery. I know the stakes of this, for myself, and for my kids.
He needs to know what the outcomes really are, what other options he has beside the one that he has been so hell-bent on taking. If only I could plant a seed of doubt in him...
My poor children....he has been so lost. Please, if you believe, pray to God that He sees fit to bring my family back together. I may be delusional, I may be crazy, but I know that I still love him. Dear God, let that be a light to make him consider home.
