Kat - I am so exhausted - I so don't want to fight again for this! Anyway I sent her an email saying I changed my mind about Saturday - and I am not going to give her this kind of break at least until the divorce is final. - I know this means she is going to be mad and all this - I don't even know if it is worth it. Today we fought also at the phone - I told her again that what she is doing is WRONG - she said that she just doesn't want to stay with me so she is moving on...... hey there is not much I can do and this little fight of mine seems a bit ridiculous. I sent back an email to my ex saying it was nice to hear from her after so many years and that yes things are not going too well and my W filed for divorce. She didn't replay back - yet - I don't know what kind of insight she can give me, but hey at this point anything is welcome
I can't fight anymore though- I am so tired - She is sooo not worth it - I am not like the ones that say they would always be in love with their W/H, if it wasn't for the kids I would be done - happy not to see her again - but because of the kids I see her EVERYDAY - and it is so much pain - too much pain. She let me down big time - her egoism is total - this is not the kind of person I wanted to spend the rest of mi life with. I'll try to relax a bit now.... the blood pressure is going too high.
