It is amazing to me the support we get from the BB whenever we really need it. Thanks again each and every one of you...
And yes, at least my breasts are busy...but I wish they would quit it, already!
Speaking of "quit it"...
I got the boot from CG yesterday. This time it is for real. After a nice weekend, Saturday and Sunday dates, flowers on Sunday, lots of "future talk" during our date, things like getting the dogs together and doing various things in the un-specified future...he sent me an e-mail that in part said,
"I alluded to the fact that I'm somewhat emotionally broken. I don't know exactly how to fix that. When I was in therapy about 3 years ago, I talked about it and never came up with any solutions. And still don't have a clue as to how to change things. I don't want to do the therapy thing again because I just don't think it will do any good." ...and then "I think I frustrate you because you see some potential in me. I just feel like I disappoint all woman that I've gone out with since my divorce. Once I get to a somewhat serious stage I panic and bail. I'm just babbling on. Trying to explain myself. "
So I called him and we talked a bit. The next day he sent me an e-mail saying that he had met someone a few weekends ago and wanted to pursue things with them.
Well it hurt for a few minutes, but Girlfriend Therapy has helped immensely! I am ready to move on, and I will chalk this experience up to further preparing me for my Beloved!
The Girlfriend I spent the afternoon with yesterday is in a great relationship...but after her WAS left she was devastated, 3 kids, hard times, etc. She shared with me some of her dating stories before she met her new guy...She said, and I believe this is true, that the whole dating process allows one to learn about yourself and apply that knowledge to the next situation. As she said, "SG, you now have that one under your belt." She described the evolution of her dates as she gained more confidence and self esteem. And the guy she is with now worships the ground she walks on.
This same Girlfriend also pointed out a few things that she did not like about CG. A few little things about him that just jumped out at her, that I didn't even notice or care about.
Oh well. This so-called "relationship" was way too much work and drama. I don't mind dating a flawed man, because we are all flawed in some way. I DO mind it when someone won't take responsibility for their own growth and how they affect others.
The dates we had and the times we were actually together were quite enjoyable, however. So that part was good.
Just on to something better! Something worthy of a Goddess!
SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
