Start of the long and bumpy road........

[TwinDad]

Ughhhh.....this is harder than I expected. I have the kids this week and I still feel so lonely. The worst part is I can hear the same loneliness in my wifes voice as well. The whole thing is just sad, so incredibly sad. I just want to reach out to her and put an end to this silly game, but I feel like it will just push her further away. She is having a very rough time at work now and I can't do my job as her husband to the full extent. This whole situation is just sad.

I was doing so well for the last couple of weeks considering, and now I feel like an emotional wreck. I guess this is why people go on AD. I don't understand why it is so bad today. I have actually been having a good amount of contact and time with my W (most of it initiated by her). I guess I just want this all behind me. I know I must sound like some glob of jello to you more experienced DBers, but I just had to get this out today