will it last this time?

[limbo]

Lise,

This is probably the hardest part! Its not easy!
It will take time, and the only thing that will to put you at ease is what your H actions are.
Continue on working on you, don't try to get to wrapped up in the relationship, and just let things happen slowly, you can't rush things, because that could cause them to run again.
You may want to considered doing a retrouvaille weekend, it helps with communication, it really helped us!
The biggest thing is that you have to be prepared to give it time, because it will take time. Not only with your H but with you too, you have to begin to trust and feel safe and that will only come with time.