Late in the Game-thread 6, maybe last in separated

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Sara, you're so right. That's why I'm dark. He needs to feel this, he needs to see how the kids feel this. I've been feeling it for a long while, nothing new for me.

I told him tonight that we need space. That I'm not canceling the Retro reservation should he change his mind about making an attempt to work on us with an open mind and an open heart. I still have July 14 as my d-day with serving papers. 44 days to act "as if" I'm all fine and dandy and don't need him. That's easy. I know I don't "need" him, but I'm not all fine and dandy.

I told my sister today that I just want to jump ahead one year, because I know regardless of where this goes, I'll be in a better place one year from now. She totally understood because 13 months ago she was diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time.