((((((cw)))))) I don't know the answer to your question! Maybe it is some of each? I think by going a bit dark, you might find out whether he is really moving, though. I kind of think your guess that you pushed him, rather than him taking the initiative might be true. Though at least his reactions were a little positive, which is a good thing, in any case.
I bet your depressive state is feeding into this too. I wish I could give some advice there. I'm struggling the same way. Tough I am finding that if I can make myself start something, I can enjoy it. So I am trying to do that more often.
