It's a stressful time right now. H wants more time with the kids (which depresses me, tho. I must think of what's best for the kids themselves) and he's getting ticked off that I keep sending some of his stuff each time he picks up the kids. I feel like I'm doing what's right, but am so confused.
One of H's issues is that he feels no matter what he does, it's not enough for me. I think I'm living that very concern right now. He invited me to the A's game and I specifically said I would if it meant something, that I couldn't just keep on playing happy family. Then he stayed for a bit last night. Now I feel the burning need to go all dark on him. I'm angry and feel pushed to the side. Is this because nothing he does is enough for me? Or is it because I realize that I pushed him into these moves and that he's not really behind them? Or is it because he actually is making a move and it's just not enough for me?
Me: 42/H: 37 T: 10 years/M: 8 D9, S8 Bomb: 7.23.07 Separated: 1.20.08 D Final 3.19.09 Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09
