I appreciate the reply racefan, and you did not come off as a jerk. I just want to get as much input as I can to apply to my sitch. And I do admit I need to do a better job of going dark and make myself more unavailable to her. Although I did alright today since she has relatives in town, she asked me to come eat pizza with them. And I politely told her that I did not want to because I have to go get ready for work.
Today has been one of those days where I just sit here and cry while I try to do my homework. When I dropped my son off to her we talked for a second and I got teary eyed when we were talking. I told her I had to go and she says don't be sad and I am sorry. When I got in the car I drove off and just broke down so bad that I had to pull over. I am such a wreck but going to work out for an hour before I go to work.
