Hey everyone! Thank you for all your good wishes. The ordeal is over and I didn't blurt out like I wanted to several times, but I'm very, very angry now and quite a bit saddened by what I witnessed my W say on the legal record over the past 2 1/2 hours.
It was lie upon lie. I was an abuser. I ridiculed and belittled her consistently. I sexually assaulted her not only once, but TWICE! Apparently I drugged her in October and had sex w/ her even though she said "No" repeatedly. It was insane!
I have e-mails and prints of text messages to shoot this all down, but she still kept going on and on w/ her "party line." She admitted to the affair, but said it was only for 2 weeks in November. She admitted staying at OM's apartment w/ D, but said that was because her friends didn't want her to go to her house b/c they were afraid I'd come after her.
She said on the record I'd never hit her or done anything physical to her and she said she didn't fear I would physically hurt my child, yet, she stated I was a negligent parent.
I can't believe this is the woman I married. She even went so far as to say that it was MY idea to get the new wedding ring and I never gave it to her until she moved out, eventhough she had it sized and soldered together right after coming back from Indiana in early January. UNBELIEVABLE!
My L did a good job of painting her into a corner on a few things, like her saying that she moved 25 miles away to convenience her and she couldn't defend my not being allowed to spend more time w/ D. Her logic was illogical and I really wanted him to push her more on some things, but he said we'd need to wait until trial for that.
My L was confident that she had perjured herself enough in the deposition that if we go to a trial, she'll hang herself on the facts.
The two Ls started talking about splitting up assets and W's mouth dropped to the floor when she learned that everything she has for her investments would be 1/2 mine. As the L's were talking about how to split them up, W looked at me and said "I think we should just let you have what is yours and I'll take mine." I didn't answer and W's L said "He'll have to agree to that." I'm not sure I want to do that. She is lying under oath and making up stories that never occurred. More stuff than in the original. She also thinks that she shouldn't have to pay for 1/2 of our joint debts b/c she claims "she didn't approve the purchases."
I'm really, really mad over this. I know bizarre said I need to be ready for her to lie under oath, but I still can't believe she did it. She danced around things and didn't directly answer questions. I'm so pissed that I actually would like to see her grilled on the stand b/c she has created another world that never existed before.
She justified her reasons to live, but sadly she didn't speak the truth. I just don't know where I'm at right now. Today, I'm very angry and I'm not sure how I can try to continue to save this marriage. I'm just not sure she'll ever come from the deep end. I don't know if she really believes this stuff or if she's just feeling like she can't back out now. Is this guilt or has she created a new reality?
I'm down. I need to go medicate myself in beer. I'm very, very down. I thought she was better than that. I guess I was wrong.
