I've needed someone to say something. I'm glad you said something, Sara. I'm scared about it. I don't give myself to someone unless I love them, and since I am not feeling that "love" like I should, I just feel like I can't. I know there is something in one of the books. I will have to reread it. Our sex life always was below standard before, so ...... I'm afraid I would cry and make it all worse.
Today has been a bad day again.....memories of OM....sadness....some days I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. I got myself busy to forget. But, the moment I let myself away from them, something brings me right back to them. I tried to get mad at OM for doing this to me and my family, but It didn't work today. Just a bad day.
These are the days that I think.....it would be soooo much easier to give up. I don't know if I can do this..............
