And they ALWAYS will be, dear Chica. Nothing can change that!
As for Susan, pray for her. It is hard, I know. This is for YOUR healing, not hers, although the prayers will help her, too. Amy is right: Javier did this, not her.
I'm re-reading the book of John, and so far, Jesus has said 3 times that whatever is asked in His name will be given to you. Ask for her salvation and for your own peace.
And remember you are loved.
David
The fires of true love can never be quenched, because the source of its flame is God Himself! - Shulamith