Bring on the Rain - Part 2

[SueS]

Hi there-

Well, H called a couple of times before he got home last night. He talked about what to have for dinner, taking D4 to the park....etc. When he got home, he changed & we took D4 to the park. After getting home, he made dinner & then took his pillows into the bedroom??!!?? I got D4 situated and did a few things for myself. I went to bed and woke to find H cuddled up to me! I swear, this man does not know what he's doing. He hasn't slept in our room in a LONG time. D4 now calls it "mommy's room". He didn't try anything, just held me. Boy, does that throw my emotions into a whirlwind when he does that. Why do that when you're ready to go live with your soul mate & the love you've always waited for? Not one word from H about his plans or working on sorting things out with what we both need to do or take to make the split work and work peacefully.

D4 woke up at 5:00 this morning & came into the bedroom. She crashed out and I got up shortly after for work. I sat there just looking at them.

Last night on the way home D4 said to me.....boy mommy, if we had a baby, we'd be one big family then! I just started to cry. She asked me why I was crying. I just told her that sometimes mommy can't always give her what she wants and that makes mommy sad. She was so cute. She said, I'll give you a big smile and that will make you happy again mommy.

Note to Self:
Okay Sue, time to buckle down and get some work done today. Time to remember that your H, intentionally or unintentionally, easily plays with your emotions by coming close whenever you seem to be detaching and breaking the bonds. Your H has, in all but the "address" sense, left you for OW. Your H does still love you, but is not in love with you. Your H has said far to many things and done to many things to turn back now. You know it's hard, but keep pluggin' away, you'll be fine!
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Have a good day everyone!

SueS