Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

That's the thing Pup, there aren't any vile outbursts or anything like that. These what I consider pullbacks are more like we'll have anywhere from 3-8 days where it seems like we're making progress and then all the sudden she's quiet and unresponsive. But it's not like in these "pullbacks" she's introspective. I still have not seen anything close to what I would consider her being remorseful. It's almost like it was 2 months ago when she said "you just need to get over it" and "we'll see how it goes between us".

I feel like I need to push things, but at the same time, we're getting along ok although it's like having a room mate. Like last night. I saw her looking at one of the local university's website for continuing education. She's mentioned before maybe taking some classes but with the kids growing up and how much I traveled for work it just never worked out. But now that the kids are either gone or pretty independent and I don't travel for work as much, it wouldn't be a problem for her to take some classes if she wants to. But she never said a single word to me about it. No, "what do you think", no "I think I'm going to take a couple classes", nothing. It's like she's just planning her life without me and the kids and if we don't like it, tough.