What the heck am I doing?

[Doingmypart]

PDT I think you are right about passive dreamers. I do need a plan & do need to work it. I just know how "DONE" she is with us and working on it. So right now I think whatever I say is wasted breath. I need to show her in my actions and attitude what I am made of. She thinks I'm a wuss & have no opinions. She refuses to see any good I do right now. So I have been doing some 180s that have shown some improvement, but currently with this most recent fight/thing we took some huge steps backwards. What I would normally do is sit down & try to talk to her about such things, but without success. That's why I am reluctant to have that talk right now. She is an atty by the way & I can't keep up in an argument. My dad suggested I write her a letter that tells her what I want etc. I am reluctant to do that too right now. That is why actions will do more I think. If I tell her I changed my mind I think it will push her further away sort of like if I try to pursue her at this point. I think I need to focus on me getting a life & working my butt off cuz this damn economy is making my sales job harder lately. So I appreciate your advice & your feelings on this. I still do not think having that talk about my mind changing will do anything positive at all. Not yet anyway. I hope this does not sound like a refusal to what you suggest. It's more like a postponement. Thank you!