Dode... ya... I call that the emotional hijack. When thoughts and feelings sneak up on you and steer you to an emotional place that you never expected to be and are not quite sure how you got there.
Things that your subconscious may pick up.... like a memory trigger of your past marriage or a special moment and then before you know it.... you feel sad, depressed, remorseful, or something that you did not see coming.
I get these quite frequently. Once I realize what is going on, it gives me occasion to ask myself how/why I am there. Kinda like you did.... then discover something new about how you are processing thoughts and feelings. I've been there so many times. It usually leads to healing. It is the working THROUGH a situation that we so often find answers.
Anyway... glad you are persevering. It will pass.... just keep doing what you are doing. Forward is the only direction to keep choosing.
